A New Post

The title says everything: this is a new post. Now that I've said that I'm not all that sure what to write. I like to stew up what I'm going to write for some time, so that when it comes to writing, I actually have something to say. This is also supposed to be mostly serious. Why? Because I have 3 xangas, one myspace, one facebook, and something else that I can't think up the name for. I realize that is a little excessive. Perhaps it is even a sign of some sin issue in my life. I will now write 10 pages biblically counseling myself...:) Anyway, I started this for my serious thoughts because my xanga has been silly for so long that I wasn't sure how people would take it if I whent completely serious (though I do write serious things on there now and then). I still have no idea what I'm writing about. I could start ranting about something I feel strongly about but that has a tendency to turn into complaining, and it is far from my purpose on earth to complain about all the wonderful things God has blessed me with. I don't want to forget why I'm here, or forget where I've come from. Sometimes I wonder why things happen and think that I deserve something better. But really (short interuption-one of my sisters called and wanted to talk to me, apparently my other sister who she was talking to was being to rational and patient about the subject of which they were talking and she thought I might be better. Unfortunately I happen to be the most rational of the three of us- at least when it comes to other peoples lives :) ) Anyway, I think I will try and sum up what I was trying to say: Instead of complaining like I often want to, it is important to realize the magnitude of what God has done for me. To have forgiven me and be changing me is amazing. Even though I have no reason to complain about the little things in my life. I am priviledged and really half the world doesn't have the things I do- tempted to go off on the starving children of Africa...(someone actually asked me about that-I dream of people asking me questions like that, someone once also asked me about "crossing the Rubican"-another question I had been waiting all my life to be asked. Anyway(I may say that word too often) after saying so little in so many words I will stop, and think of something deep and meaningful to write at a later date. I just realized what I was going to write about. Nooooo!!!!!!!! well that is life. I may remember it another time I am writing- perhaps later today. Spell check will not work for me. Sorry for all the spelling errors.