News update: Well there isn't much to say except that I would appreciate prayer. I just finished a 8 day work stretch and I am now starting a 9 day stretch. I had the lovely (sarcasm) of working until midnight twice. Anyway, I have to drive up today. Well maybe I'll try and update again sometime.

Resolutions Revisited

So at the end of the fall semester I felt inspired to write a list of personal resolutions- not the ones turned in for Biblical Fun. I meant to post them by my bed and work hard on improving. Unfortunately like most of my good intentions they didn't happen, instead they sat on my xanga for no purpose. So I thought I would post them again with the intention of trying once more to improve. And hopefully with God's help I will make at least a little progress this summer. Hmmm- well I was a little upset about some specific things when I wrote this and I can tell now when reading back. My Personal Resolutions 1. Resolved, to focus on my own personal and spiritual life and leave others in the hands of God. 2. Resolved, to pray for others but not take things out of God’s hands, for on my own I will only complicate things and cause unneeded heartache. 3. Resolved, to spend quality time in God’s word, not as an obligation I feel I must accomplish but as a heartfelt desire to grow closer to Him. 4. Resolved, to spend more time on meaningful conversations and doing acts of kindness than I do in meaningless chatter and activities. 5. Resolved, to not jump to conclusions without knowing all facts and evidence. 6. Resolved, to not feel jealousy for something or someone that is not mine and that I have no claim to. 7. Resolved, to not let petty jealousy hinder friendships that I could have. 8. Resolved, to not blame others for what I think they should have done when I did nothing on my part. 9. Resolved, to clean my room more often. 10. Resolved, to learn how to balance my academic and social life in a way that neither suffers over much. 11. Resolved, to not hold my opinions and advice to myself in situations when it is needed, as this is selfish. 12. Resolved, to ask if I can help instead of waiting for someone to ask me. 13. Resolved, to never feel comfortable and stagnant in my spiritual life. 14. Resolved, to honestly care how people are when I ask them how they are. 15. Resolved, to be willing to share my thoughts and emotions with others. 16. Resolved, to not let others actions cause me to sin. 17. Resolved, to not focus on how I want others to change, but on how I can change. 18. Resolved, to put more thought into my actions, and to be quick to ask for forgiveness. 19. Resolved, to not focus my thoughts on myself and my own selfish ambitions but to think about others in a caring and uplifting way. 20. Resolved, to not become impatient when waiting for others, as there are many occasions when I make people wait for me. 21. Resolved, to not let the sun go down on my anger, literally. To take action instead of wallowing in self pity thinking “I will get over this”, when I will just harbor it and make the situation worse. 22. Resolved, to be quick to listen and slow to judge. 23. Resolved, to remember that I’m a sinner and nothing I can do on my own is worthy of God’s grace. 24. Resolved, to truly be happy for others when good things happen to them and not to me. 25. Resolved, to realize that if I accomplish any of these resolutions that it is only through Christ and not my own strength. 26. Resolved, to be thankful when people correct me and to realize that it is out of love and not an effort to tear me down. 27. Resolved, to realize that what is best is not necessarily what I want. 29. Resolved, to not pray for others to change so that it will benefit me but to pray out of a true concern for them. 30. Resolved, to not give my opinion like it is the will of God that everyone should obey and agree with. I am mostly wrong, and often need to admit it. 31. Resolved, to love others unselfishly. To be willing to love even if it means I may get hurt, for there is no gain without risk. To let God love others through me, and not let my personality and desires get in the way of his sovereign will.

I'm Alive!!!

Yes indeed I am! I'm also on the staff lounge computer that must be shared with all the other summer staff, so I won't be writing much of anything. I am enjoying my new job working at the coffee shop now calleed Creekside Cafe. I'm learning new things. Today I used the Expresso maker for the first time- I definitely need practice. There are mice or some other critter that move around in the wall next to my bed- rather disturbing when you are trying to fall asleep. I have resorted to playing classical music so I don't hear it as loudly. My first day of work is over. I was actually quite worried about it because when the coffee shop isn't open I work in accomodations (my department of the last two summers), and Bruce my boss told me that he expected me to help train summer staff because all the other full time workers were off. Anyway it turned out to not be that bad and we both survived and it is time for me to go to bed. My day off is Saturday so I plan on writing something more meaningful then.

5 1/2 hours spent in church today and a new lease on life. A new new post coming soon.

A New Post

The title says everything: this is a new post. Now that I've said that I'm not all that sure what to write. I like to stew up what I'm going to write for some time, so that when it comes to writing, I actually have something to say. This is also supposed to be mostly serious. Why? Because I have 3 xangas, one myspace, one facebook, and something else that I can't think up the name for. I realize that is a little excessive. Perhaps it is even a sign of some sin issue in my life. I will now write 10 pages biblically counseling myself...:) Anyway, I started this for my serious thoughts because my xanga has been silly for so long that I wasn't sure how people would take it if I whent completely serious (though I do write serious things on there now and then). I still have no idea what I'm writing about. I could start ranting about something I feel strongly about but that has a tendency to turn into complaining, and it is far from my purpose on earth to complain about all the wonderful things God has blessed me with. I don't want to forget why I'm here, or forget where I've come from. Sometimes I wonder why things happen and think that I deserve something better. But really (short interuption-one of my sisters called and wanted to talk to me, apparently my other sister who she was talking to was being to rational and patient about the subject of which they were talking and she thought I might be better. Unfortunately I happen to be the most rational of the three of us- at least when it comes to other peoples lives :) ) Anyway, I think I will try and sum up what I was trying to say: Instead of complaining like I often want to, it is important to realize the magnitude of what God has done for me. To have forgiven me and be changing me is amazing. Even though I have no reason to complain about the little things in my life. I am priviledged and really half the world doesn't have the things I do- tempted to go off on the starving children of Africa...(someone actually asked me about that-I dream of people asking me questions like that, someone once also asked me about "crossing the Rubican"-another question I had been waiting all my life to be asked. Anyway(I may say that word too often) after saying so little in so many words I will stop, and think of something deep and meaningful to write at a later date. I just realized what I was going to write about. Nooooo!!!!!!!! well that is life. I may remember it another time I am writing- perhaps later today. Spell check will not work for me. Sorry for all the spelling errors.