Boredom isn't a good reason to post, but I will try and bridge that and actually write something that I want to say. I keep thinking about things that I meant to post about a while ago, but I have more trouble writing about them when I let time pass. I was going to write something about living beyond reproach, Shondra and I talked a bit about it at work during the summer. But I let it pass, so I will write about this week.

In all honesty it hasn't been the easiest week- not just speaking about school. I've been moping a bit, rather caught up in all the things I wish I could change in my life. I think about how I wish things were different then mope because I can't do anything about it and don't think God will. Sometimes knowing that God wants what is best for me I just assume that is everything I don't want. Anyway during dorm chapel on Friday everything was put into perspective. We were singing How Great is Our God, and I remembered How great our God really is. When I focus on Him and not my own petty little problems I realize how trivial they are. Honestly they don't matter. It's late at night and I'm having trouble formulating my thoughts. The moral of the story is that, when I'm feeling mopish I need to focus on God, well I should be focusing on Him all the time, He should be the center of my life. I'm saying should because I fail so many times. The older I get the more amazed I am at His love. Sometimes I think that after all these years I would have learned something so small. Yet thankfully there are trials in my life that constantly remind me of how much I need Him, and how great He is. Well I think I will go to bed now, and maybe write something that might make a little more sense later. GBY