One step Closer

So it is a Friday night and I will try and recap what I have learned this week. In one of my classes we were talking about taking verses out of context, so we looked at the verse about "where two or three are gathered together in my name...". This is a very common verse to most of us, we have probably heard it all in the context of a prayer meeting and so forth. But if you think about it God also says he will never leave us or forsake us. He is always with us. But the verses surrounding are about discipline and how to deal with a sinning brother. These verses are speaking out about confrontation. I know I'm always scared to death when it comes to any type of confrontation. I shake with fear and try and avoid it but really this should give us courage. God is there with us when we have confront people, and we are not alone. I found this really encouraging.

thoughts of a mundane life

I honestly feel like I have nothing to say. Which is a very bad thing indeed. I would rather be succeeding by leaps and bounds or failing. At least in failure I would be learning something, and hopefully trusting God more and myself less. But here I am in the mediocre. I think one of the worst things in life is being content with where you are. Don't get me wrong I'm not talking about the physical I'm talking about the spiritual. I never want to be perfectly content in my walk with God. What I'm trying to say is I'm not perfect (people who know me are now laughing at the notion), and as long as I'm not perfect my relationship with Christ will not be perfect. So there will always be things to improve, there is so much more to God than my mind will ever be able to grasp. I could spend every hour of every day studying His word and never fully understand Him. This is amazing and humbling. As I sit here enjoying my pathetic life it seems easy to give up. If I can never understand God, what is the point of trying? Well first of all, this isn't exactly my aim. I want to love God more and learn to serve and follow Him better. Not being able to understand Him helps me to accept His decisions in my life. I want a God who is bigger than me. I have a tendency to repeatedly mess up my life. I would be nowhere without God's grace in my life. I'm not sure if any of that made sense, but to sum it up I'm just reminding myself how great God is and why I want and need to know Him better.

I was challenged in one of my classes the other day. We were talking about work, and how it is terrible to work really hard at your job and hate it. The problem is I have started to strongly dislike my job. I know I shouldn't and I don't want to. If I am really trying to Glorify God in all that I do then I shouldn't be complaining and hating work. I want to praise Him for what he has given me and have thankful attitude. The problem is I'm not sure how to get there from where I am. How can I change this? I'm praying for help to change my attitude but it doesn't seem possible. Could it be that I don't want to change? That I want to feel sorry for myself? I hope not, but I have been doing a lot of soul searching. I just hope that I don't stop after the first stage. That I don't identify the problem then do nothing about it. I have a tendency of doing this, finding the sin and identifying it then doing nothing to change it. I try and put it off but often forget about the putting on. The challenge for me for the week and forever after is to seek after a Christ-like attitude in all things, even work.